It may seem that I haven’t been doing much because I haven’t posted much. On the contrary, I’ve been doing quite a bit. In attempt to get my work some publicity (attempt anyways), I submitted my work to an exhibition; however, it was not accepted. So, let me tell you how I felt when making the painting, before, after, and during.
So, before the deadline, I found myself in a rut. Seeing as how the work had to be related to popular culture, I chose to focus on music in particular. I was listening to Alicia Key’s “Girl on fire”, and I must say that I came up with at least three different variations within a span of month or so. One day, I was reading her lyrics and I guess I saw a nice little daydream from which I drew inspiration from.
So, on the day on which I submitted my painting I was excited, and afraid at the same time. But, I thought, so long as someone- anyone- saw my painting, then it wouldn’t matter if I won or not; but alas, when I lost, I kind of felt discouraged. I felt that way for about a week after the submission deadline, and after talking with my friends and supporters, I feel a little better, and I’m kind of excited to start on my next piece.
I discovered a technique that I really enjoy, and the painting is a bit different from what I normally make. THANK GOD. I felt like for a while I was stuck in an academic rut with all of the still lifes I was painting and drawing. Yes, they work if I am aiming on being commercial, but it’s really liberating to make something from my imagination for once.
Anyways, here is the painting: Girl on Fire, acrylic on panel 30 in x 40 in
I have a couple of other ideas too. Lately, I have been meeting a lot of analytical-like people and they make me think of how humanity has strayed (it would seem) from understanding how things are connected; they are also straying from, I feel, the original concept of immortality, and while many think-even myself to an extent-forever is a very long time that no one would want to experience, looking for “forever” is the key to understanding the fundamental spiritual essence of everyone. And no, I’m not talking about an atom. That’s matter.
I mentioned about a few months ago that I wanted to make some works that protest or depict the extent to which my community has deteriorated, but, right now, I’m still kind of trying to gather the courage to express my feelings about these matters.
Anywho! I’m going to take a break and recover from this cold or allergies or whatever. I look forward to tomorrow when I can pick up my painting and later play “Long Way From Home”.